Old Friends; New Life

I think it's safe to say that we all go through that rotation of friends, we have all had those friends who were but no longer are. I know that for me, personally, I just weeded out the majority of my "friends." I know that in the past year-year and a half I have really tightened who I trust down to three or four people.

I'd like to say that it was easy to do this, but the truth is, I still struggle with the thoughts of this. There are days where I want so bad to just go and talk to a couple of these people but know that in the long run doing that would only hurt me. The entire process of narrowing down my friends wasn't entirely up to me, and really I think it is better that way. Because had i had my say in most of the people I pulled away from I would not be anywhere near where I am today. I feel I have learned so much in the past 2-3 years, so much about the world around me but even more about myself. I think that in some ways I was surrounding myself with people that were blinding me to seeing what I needed to work on. I was surrounding myself with people that made me feel good. In retrospect this was a horrible idea, reason being while i felt they were making me feel good about myself all the friendship really was was about them. Everything was about them, they were some of the most selfish people I had ever been around, but things felt right when I was with them so I just gave in.

Now that I look back at that I am actually very glad I pulled away from those relationships.

I now have some "old friends" that I no longer talk to, but I have become a better person because of this, and I am ready for my new life to begin!